Gonna curl up in a ball and wait for my trainer to choose me.
I’m going to use lethargy and masturbation.
It’s super effective.
that last reply came across as a dig to the anon.
Anonymous asked: sorry for being nosey, was just curious. hope things work out for you though, you seem like a cool guy.
No need to apologise, it was nice to articulate my bullshit and I appreciate the concern, I guess I just prefer one on one conversations if I’m going to go that deep.
There’s nothing wrong with being nosey, curiosity makes life more interesting. And sometimes it kills cats. The moral to this story is, it’s good to be curious, just don’t be a pussy about it.
Anonymous asked: what would you like to repair in your life?
Some repairs would require time travel.
I have learned so much in my life, but most importantly I have gained an understanding of everything I have learned. I can use this to give advice and to help people.
But I can’t help myself. I can never follow my own advice.
I try to be good at lots of things instead of being great at a few things. I lack focus because my brain refuses to show me a world through narrow boundaries.
My gift is that I pay attention to everything.
My curse is that I pay attention to everything.
I would need to be several people to live happily as one.
This sounds like ego, I know. It is. But not in a good way. I’m not trying to excuse or put a positive spin on myself or my talents, because I am achieving nothing from these things.
Mostly I need to have less doubts and more confidence. I need to stop being a coward and reach out for what I want in this life.
But that’s just the only tangent of my problems I’m comfortable talking about publicly.
Anonymous asked: why aren't you happy?
Because my life is a string if terrible decisions I am totally responsible for and seemingly completely incapable of repairing.
Also about ten years of depression that probably has a lot to do with the first paragraph.